Hello out there!

Hello There! My name is Veronica. I am 21 years old. I have never had my own blog before, so I'm really excited to be doing this. There is just so much on my mind, that I feel that this is such a great way to get those feelings out and I know that there are many people out there who will listen.

You can say I'm kinda going through a mid-life crisis. You may say, "What, your 21, and there's so much life ahead of you!" That would be the common response. But you see, it seems like I've experienced too much life already at this young age. Let me elaborate...

I am what you would call a cancer survivor. I was diagnosed at the age of 14 with acute lymphoblastic leukemia, which is cancer of the white blood cells in your body. You can say for a fact that I had to grow up really fast. A typical 14 year old would be in high school talking about boys, clothes, and the usual gossip. For me, I had just moved to a new state, and this was my greeting. I didn't live the typical teenage life. For me, it was in and out of the hospital for blood count checks and procedures. Most of my friends were doctors and nurses. While girls were flipping through hair magazines, I was watching mine fall out. I had put my high school education on hold for a year due to my sickness. When I returned, I was at a new school; no friends, really short hair and low self-esteem. I was weak, sad, and angered by what I had to endure. Millions of questions flew through my head those 2 1/2 years of treatment, "Why?" was the most common. I can say I still ask myself this. Those should of been the best times of my life, instead I was fighting to keep mine. This was the most sad and angry time I had ever experienced. It is amazing how much suffering a person has to go through, yet you can summarize it all in a couple sentences.

Well, now I am 21, and there is no sign of the cancer. It can always come back, but as each year passes the chances get fewer. What am I doing now? I am in the process of enrolling at a new online university to continue my education in Finance. I will be moving back to New Jersey where I was born and raised. While finishing off my education, I plan to get into modeling or music or maybe even acting. Before I got sick, I was into music and dance, however because of my physical state, I could not continue. You might ask why I would be interested in these types of businesses. Well, I can say that Finance will give me a a good job, salary, and sense of accomplishment, but will it fufill me? During the years I was sick and up until now, I feel like many parts of me were taken away; my years of a care-free youth was stolen from me. Not only my emotions were affected, but my physical state. I have told you of the procedures, however let me put it this way; A 21 year old should not, and I repeat, SHOULD NOT have to deal with stretch marks and cellulite. Anyway, I have chosen to write this blog as a type of support system to help guide me to reclaiming my body and life. I will take up good eating habits and excercise. Now before anyone passes judgement, let me say that I am not trying to loose weight to become a stick thin, sick model. Definately not! What I am trying to do is bring my body to better health and shape so I can reach my goals. If you don't have your health, what do you have?

I will be checking in regularly to read your input, PLEASE let me know what you think. I await your responses... :)